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Shout out to that random person who followed me and reminded me I had one of these
As I lay my head down to sleep, I offer Cthulhu what remains of my sanity to keep. I woke up yesterday without realizing it. Spent a whole day in a dream. This is a one man team. Got a hole in my heart it would seem. Got a tarnished light that forgets it can gleam. Fight daemons and humans to blow off steam. In reality im fighting myself. I feel as useless as a fucking warrior belf. Forgot to wake up this morning of mourning. Hollowed out within and filled with liquid. I’m really just hella wicked.
You see, I think every human gets a chance of salvatiom in their life. At a certain point when they have realized their full potential and noticed their abilities they can start anew and begin to fight the good fight and never back down. Or they can walk the dark path and peer into the eyes of insanity for amusement. At some point in our evolution the concept of choosing got skewed. We no longer thought we could choose. Our destinies were laid out before us. So we thought, but in reality we are always given a choice but with each choice comes a set of possibilities which all of them will be lived out. Maybe not in your universe or dimension but some where some one who is you in another universe will make that choice for you.
Anonymous said: Mother Russia is proud of you!
Da, mother russia loves all its children. Tainted by American blood or not
The older I get the more tame the bear inside me becomes. The more I realize that without order, chaos and anarchy would be no fun. Palm Beach County has put it unto perspective for me. All the years Tyler and I created anarchy and chaos with so much ease made me realize anarchy despite being fun is useless for real progress. Just like SLC Punk taught me, the best way to destroy a system is from the inside. In order for true anarchy and chaos to be obtained we first need order in our lives. Which brings me to my concept of pain. Pain isnt chaos or anarchy. Pain is order, it is a way of learning. Fact, pain was the first way we learned what not to fuck with and what to fuck with. Chaos and anarchy comes in when you deliver pain. Thats why fighting is the essence of life. Thats why I fight, to feel alive. When two men exchange fists they exchange a understanding in a primal way. War is the same, but it is disguised as order. War is ordered anarchy on a grand scale. When two countries of order go to war, anarchy and destruction left in its wake. America goes to war for order. We decided that we should deliver democracy to other countries, but all that does is leave anarchy when that country rejects democracy. Just because we make democracy “work” doesnt mean it works for everyone.
I have a weird thought pattern. It has many different levels of processing going on at once usually and when it stops abruptly it all disappears. Many times I find myself thinking about seven different things and doing math in my head. I’m almost always doing math in my head. Just random shit. Like cubes and squares. Sometimes I just keep increasing the power and keep going ‘till the train stops. Its the same thing for my thoughts when I am typing a rant out or poetry even. I just let my fingers do what they do and they convey my thoughts. That’s why I love reading. My thoughts are all concentrated on whats going on. Same with coding. When, I’m coding I lose track of everything. Everything just makes sense and comes together so easily. Fighting is probably my brains best rest from the think train. I tend to fight based on instincts and use of the knowledge I have of fighting.
here i go again, here i go again
lookin in the mirror
thinkin damn this life is a pain
thinkin what is it i fear here
thinkin where the fuck am i now
thinkin when am i gonna catch some light
thinkin why am i goin in circles like a trippin cow
thinkin out how i prefer the night
im a bear beating bastards till theyre barely breathin
im still only human, i have a capability of bleedin
step at me the wrong way, expect a quick fuckin bear claw
before there was anything to say, it’d knock you in your fuckin jaw
you forget, im a fuckin psycho
i was insane from the get go
in case you didnt know
i gotta hella mean hook like hellboy
i have a tendency to get mad like the hulk
theres a war goin on in my head
like the unstoppable force vs the immovable bulk
its not over till one of them is dead
be careful which you feed, one of them will conquer your mind
left for too long you may bleed, may get you caught up in a bind
sanity and soul sold to cthulhu, to help me know science
there are very few who are allowed in this alliance
even less who know their way through the dungeon
i got the world on my shoulders like im atlas
still tryna figure out my function
sometimes gettin lost in th blackness
Since, we obviously will never be able to agree to a one world government among all of us who live on this single planet. I feel like we should work out a deal where we settle disputes through a series of tests. Where instead of killing off thousands of innocent lives we set up a sort of extreme Olympics where we go, let us get that oil, we’ll put our best fighter against your best fighters. Who ever comes out victorious takes the prize. It doesn’t even have to be fighting. Its just the example I’m using, because humans love to see pain. Few of them actually like to be on the receiving end of that pain, though. The ones who enjoy it are usually the ones already damaged beyond belief and they can usually take it.
lost my fuel, may continue later
we up all hours, cause we like to pretend we got super powers. acting like we saving the word sorting through all this code. the fact is we only saving is our own node. we’re led to believe we can choose this game’s setting, but for some the gods set this shit to expert mode from 0day. people talk all this shit, but i dont hear the words they say. my kind looked down on, why when we acknowledge sometimes we too are a pawn. we have had rough lives and we’re fuckin hella torn. most of us cursed from the day we were born. sometimes we wishin we werent wise. our intelligence goin places people wish they knew about. its our turn now to ensure this world survives, i feel like it won’t otherwise. the past is past yet no one hears every time we try to shout. you’re all sheep following each other in circles. you’re all forgetting in the end we turn into our own pearls. none of us are perfect, we’re only human. none of us will survive if we dont form a full union. look past everyones flaws and realize we can do good with these destructive paws. i know maybe better than most, i was once just a bear wandering the coast. i was scared and lost, blamed the world cause i hated myself the most. went downtown lookin for fights. dem damn dogs always got stuck in my sights. eventually i moved onto to knocking assholes out like lights. you hit a girl, you deserve to get hit so hard you twirl.
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